I should at least be...I should at least wish I wasn't. I should at least wish that my fate would get back in line with what it's supposed to be. She was very clear that the next stop for me was the afterlife and I'm pretty sure you're not dead.
On one hand, being ashamed that your thoughts and feelings don't match what you think they should is a pretty Catholic way to feel... [That is a joke.]
...on the other, it's pretty much bullshit, Vax. That kind of shame, it's useless. What would it do except make you miserable? If you don't feel that way, you can't force yourself to feel that way by feeling guilty about it. Why wouldn't you be happy that you have more time with your friends and your family? You don't have to commit to that level of self-negation.
[He doesn't talk for a minute, and when he speaks his voice has gone quiet.]
I pledged to be Hers. Body, mind, heart, and soul. I did it so She would let my sister live. If I don't hold up my end, how do I expect Her to hold up Hers?
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...on the other, it's pretty much bullshit, Vax. That kind of shame, it's useless. What would it do except make you miserable? If you don't feel that way, you can't force yourself to feel that way by feeling guilty about it. Why wouldn't you be happy that you have more time with your friends and your family? You don't have to commit to that level of self-negation.
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I pledged to be Hers. Body, mind, heart, and soul. I did it so She would let my sister live. If I don't hold up my end, how do I expect Her to hold up Hers?